A Testimony of Experience From
Joyce Rigsby
Note: Joyce is a writer and has written articles on deafness for various magazines, as well as a book on the experience of losing her husband (a doctor) prematurely. Joyce has been losing her hearing for many years, finally joining the world of deafness. Then, she had the controversial operation for a cochlear implant. Now she is more or less 'hearing' when it's working, and deaf when it is not. If we can set aside the emotional aspects of this controversy, and hear her spiritual applications, we will all be blessed! Joyce is retired and lives in Loma Linda, CA. She has also been a guiding light in getting a small school for deaf children started in Ethiopia, North Africa.
"Oh, that my people would listen to me. . ."
Ps. 81:13
"I'm Listening for Your Voice . . ."
To understand others it is said that you need to walk a
mile in their moccasins. I've walked many miles with ears that heard
smatterings, or nothing, and as a result I understand the deaf and hard of
hearing better than most hearing people. Though I have a cochlear
implant now, all I need to do is unhook my speech processor and I'm deaf again.
If a battery dies or a wire breaks I'm back in the deaf world.
I know what it's like to strain every fiber in
me and still not hear enough to understand. . . . . But I've also learned
more about God's voice and His longing that we, His children, hear and
understand Him. I would like to share some parallels.
External Conditions that improve reception
As my hearing deteriorated I found myself angling to
get as close as possible to the speaker. To hear God best, we need to draw
close to Him. Closeness to Him isn't physical but rather a felt
presence as in an old hymn, "I can feel His presence near me and His
arms around me thrown." Many poets have responded to this idea in
hymns: Nearer My God to Thee, I would draw nearer to Jesus, Near to the Heart of
God, Nearer still Nearer, Jesus keep me near the cross. . . and more.
Desire is the necessary ingredient to drawing closer - ask anyone who has been
in love.
Eliminating background noise is another essential for the
hard of hearing - too often we miss God's voice because we are distracted.
C.S. Lewis states that for a Christian the "first job of the day is to
shove back the wishes and hopes for the day that rush at you like wild animals.
Listen for that other voice. . ." Henri Noewen writes
"Through spiritual discipline we prevent the world from filling our lives
to such an extent that there is no place left to listen. . . We do not
take the spiritual life seriously if we do not set aside some time to be with
God and listen to him". (1)
While becoming deaf I soon realized that the better I knew
someone the more likely I was to understand them. One day I was
encouraging a daughter to learn sign language and she said, "But Mama,
you've read my lips all my life." I had watched those
baby lips for her first words and understood her long after I couldn't
understand many others. Abraham must have known God very well to be able
to recognize His voice when told to kill Isaac.
Darkness cuts off nearly all communication for a
deaf person who relies almost totally on visual input. Before my
husband Bob died I was wearing two hearing aids and I remember how I missed the
"pillow talk" when at night I took the aids out and the light was
turned off. We did not know sign language so signing into each
others hands as the deaf do was not an option, yet I knew Bob loved me.
Similarly God wants me to trust him even when it grows dark and I can't
see or understand what's happening.
Internal Conditions that Improve Reception
For those who take hearing for
granted, passive listening is often the norm. When I was a teenager my
parents sometimes checked me out to see if I had been listening during family
worship. Usually I'd be able to repeat the last few words to satisfy them
but I was a passive listener who often didn't listen actively.
Once my hearing started to decline I had to be an active listener or I didn't
get anything. And finally, listening took so much energy that
it could be termed "aggressive listening". The aggressive
listener comes diligently seeking to hear what God has to say. There is a
fervent focus I did not posses as a teenager.
A passionate desire to know what the speaker
is saying will make you "hang in" until you do understand.
It's a bit harder to persevere if you feel unworthy of the person's time as I
often did when I needed many repetitions of the same piece of information.
Some people are not willing to take the time a hard of hearing person needs to
communicate. God is always willing to wait patiently for
me to hear His voice. In How to Listen to God , Charles Stanley
states:
nothing is more urgent
nothing is more necessary,
nothing more
rewarding than hearing what God has to say. (2)
Ways God Speaks - "For God does speak - now one way, now another . .
. "
Job. 33:14
We must accept any way God chooses to
communicate with us be it through success or failure, pleasure or pain.
One simple way is to make us restless with an uneasiness in our hearts -
while the primary way will be through the Scriptures. Not the
"here a little, there a little" study for the purpose of proving a
point (or writing a sermon or article!). As repeated workouts bring about
the physical changes we want, it is daily meditation over an extended period of
time that gives spiritual health. Quick fixes don't exist in either
realm. C. S. Lewis suggests that we "steep ourselves in a
Personality" versus learning a subject. John Wesley believes
that people sometimes want direct revelation on issues that could be resolved by
honest Bible study.
Experience can also be the voice of God if knowledge
of the Bible is used as a filter. C.S. Lewis believes, "God
whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our
pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."(3) But it is possible to
hear his voice and not recognize it even if God uses supernatural means.
After Christ's baptism God spoke (John 12:27-33) and yet, even though the voice
was audible and distinct, all some heard was thunder.
Nature is another way. Theoretically it
should be easier for the deaf to interpret God's messages from nature for they
are accustomed to incorporating every visual clue into messages they receive.
A raised eyebrow or an expanded sign add to any message but how much more a
beautiful rainbow, sunset or star studded sky speak in God's sign language if we
have eyes to see and hearts to understand.
God also uses dreams and visions to speak to us.
Acts 2:17,18 tells of the New Testament fulfillment of Joel's prophecy, "I
will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh: your sons and your daughters shall
prophesy and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream
dreams . . ." This promise was not only for Bible times.
People Who Hear God's Voice
I must be available to answer the phone if I
want to hear the voice on the other end. Similarly I must be
available all the time in order to hear God's voice as He may not be calling
during the specific hour I've dedicated to meditation. He may want
to speak to me at inconvenient times. Do your close friends call only at
designated times? Being available to best friends is a privilege and can
be regarded as a joy rather than an interruption of plans.
God speaks to those who are willing to obey His
voice. Acts 8 tells of Philip's going to Samaria where he
preached Christ to the people and many were baptized. This revival
was important enough that Peter and John joined him from Jerusalem.
"And the angel of the Lord spake unto Philip saying, "Arise and go . .
. unto Gaza which is in the desert." Humanly speaking it made no
sense to leave a revival he'd started! He didn't recognize the
command as a providential opening that would spread the gospel - the command
actually didn't make sense until after he'd obeyed.
The humble will hear Him as did Moses who was the most humble
man on the face of the earth. Those who truly love God, and take the
time, will hear Him best. But if there are things I really don't
want to hear, my inner desire can keep me from hearing God.
How to Identify God's Voice
There are many voices speaking to us besides God's :
emotions, pressure we feel from others and the voice of evil to mention a few.
All these can masquerade as God's voice. Recognizing His voice
takes practice and more practice.
Speech sounded like
Donald Duck fast forward when I first started
hearing after surgery for a cochlear implant. It's taken time
and effort besides desire to be able to understand speech. At first I
couldn't understand tapes unless I was listening aggressively and doing nothing
else at the same time. But practicing has even made it possible for
me to recognize the accent of a seat mate on the plane. Much
practice will make it possible to recognize God's voice even if you can't now.
A few pointers : His voice will always be consistent with
Scriptures but may conflict with human wisdom for His ways are not our ways.
He won't tell you to do something that will set you back spiritually, nor will
His voice advise you to do things to gratify the flesh but rather to seek
benefit of others as well as self. His voice is never harsh or his
speech crude and He will not contradict himself.
. . .
. . . . . .
I put this aside to finish.
One evening a couple days later a friend shared her reason for changing to a
church other than the one she'd grown up in. She was obviously
closer to God than ever before but I was concerned about explaining her absence
when I attended her "old" church. I watered my agapanthus
and went to bed with a prayer in my heart.
During sleep my friend's story and my potted plants must have woven themselves into a pattern because when I awakened the word "transplanted" stayed with me. It dawned on me that not all plants keep blooming where they're planted, and that some benefit from being transplanted. I believe God sent me the reassurance I needed to face questions about what some might term 'backsliding'. I believe the word "transplanted" was directly from Him and rejoiced that I had heard and understood.
Thank you (God) "that
there is no place on earth that some echo of your voice cannot be heard
for the one who is listening . . . " |
The Lord is wanting to say something to you now. . . about His will for you. Are you seeking His voice? Jack Hayford (5) |
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(2) How to Listen to God , Charles Stanley, p.8
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(3) The Problem of Pain, C.S. Lewis, p.81
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(4) Windows of the Soul, Ken Gire, p.129
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(5) Pursuing the Will of God, Jack Hayford, p.12
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